I’m a walking contradiction this time of year. I live for the cooler temperatures, coffee on the front porch, nights around the fire, boots, sweaters, scarves, yellow leaves, driving with the window down, just…fall. I LOVE it. But I also start to get a little anxious because cooling temperatures means earlier sunsets, darker evenings, cold nights, and less sunlight. It means, unfortunately, that my depression usually worsens. I wasn’t always like this. I am a contradiction because I both crave and am scared of the cold weather, the darkness. I hate this, SO starting today and every Sunday during fall and winter (hopefully), I’m going to post what I’m calling “Cold Weather Happiness” – this could be anything from a song to a quote, a picture to a post about a person, lyrics to a description of a favorite place, anything that will remind me to be happy, to fight through the cold, dark place my mind goes to sometimes and remember that it’s not always like this. I’m sorry if this is a little deeper than I usually go, but I need to do it for me, and I hope that, maybe, it can help some of you too, because I know I’m not the only one that feels this way during the fall and winter.
twenty one pilots // Holding On To You
Remember the moment you know exactly where you’re going,
‘Cause the next moment, before you know it,
Time is slowing and it’s frozen still,
And the window sill looks really nice, right?
You think twice about your life, it probably happens at night, right?
Fight it, take the pain, ignite it,
Tie a noose around your mind loose enough to breathe fine and tie it,
To a tree, tell it, “You belong to me,
This ain’t a noose, this is a leash,
And I have some news for you, you must obey me.”